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©2002 by Donna Cunningham, MSW

Shame is one of the most painful states of being because it assaults our sense of self-worth. When we are ashamed, we want to hide from the world. We feel like lepers and pariahs, unworthy of human society. Guilt and shame are different, though the two are easily confused because both make us feel so terrible about ourselves. Guilt, however, is about things we have done that we regret because of the harm they caused. Shame is about who we are. It is more fundamental and harder to cleanse than guilt -- we can atone for our actions, but we cannot readily change who we are.

We are born shameless but are taught shame very early -- it begins with toilet training and proceeds from there. It is a primary tool that first our elders and later our peers use to manipulate and control us and to achieve dominance. Shame can be evoked by subtle means, from raising an eyebrow and statements like, "I'm surprised that you..." or "I'm disappointed that you..." all the way to blindsiders like, "It's a good thing your mother isn't around to see this!" Shame is the currency of emotional blackmail.

The first step to healing almost any issue is awareness, and shame is no exception. Until we allow ourselves to experience the shame we carry, it is difficult to be free of it. We need to allow ourselves to feel it rather than quickly pushing it down into the unconscious. If you aren't certain whether what you are feeling is shame, it is often a sick, twisting, burning sensation in the solar plexus -- the area just above the waist -- that eats away at you and makes you wish you could sink through the floor.

Though it can surely be uncomfortable, shame really is no worse than a toothache or menstrual cramps and doesn't last nearly as long as they do. By sitting quietly with it, we learn a great deal about where it is coming from. We become more aware of what is going on within ourselves and in our relationships.

Perhaps a comfortable place to begin is with television commercials. Watch what ploys they use to persuade you that you are unacceptable unless you buy their products. Then begin observing what the people around you are doing and saying to arouse shame in you, and consider what they stand to gain from it. Your first response to catching on may be anger -- a healthy anger that mobilizes your will to stand up against this kind of manipulation.

It may not be wise to act on this discovery immediately. Because of a lifelong backlog of shame, we are prone to react far out of proportion to the current situation. Worse, until we have cleared out some of it, people are likely to escalate their shaming techniques and evoke even more of it in order to regain control. They move from raising an eyebrow and shaking their heads to more devastating ploys like, "Maybe I should tell the crowd what you are up to", or, "I thought you were a better person than this". If we are still full of shame, we may cave in and feel even worse about ourselves rather than recognizing the manipulation for what it is.

Though awareness is the foundation of healing, adjunct therapies like chakra work, crystals, and energy work can support us in releasing this uncomfortable emotion. The flower remedies, also known as flower essences, are especially powerful healers. Several of them can assist us in becoming more aware of shame and in releasing an old backlog of it.

The Flower Essence Repertory, published by the Flower Essence Society, is an invaluable tool for finding remedies related to a particular healing issue. (It includes only their own remedies, and the 39 that were identified by Dr. Edward Bach and that are also made by Healing Herbs, the brand I use.) Their listings for the category "Shame" include definitions for 14 essences, many of which I have found invaluable. (See p.257)

A primary remedy for shame is Crab Apple, which Dr. Bach described as for those of us who feel disgusting or unclean, as though there were something inherently wrong with us. It is an especially good one for bodily shame. FES also suggests Bach's Agrimony for those who cover a sense of shame with a mask of cheerfulness, the sort who have to look good to others no matter how they might be feeling.

Pink Monkeyflower is perhaps FES's prime remedy for shame, including the sense that we might be exposed in all our vulnerability and pain. The Repertory says, "Most frequently, early childhood trauma or abuse -- or exploitative or debasing experiences at any phase of life -- are the hidden factors in such behavior". (p.354) FES's Golden Eardrops is another important healer for those whose shame is based in painful childhood events.

FES's collection also contains several very fine essences for coming to terms with the shame associated with our bodies and our sexual selves. They include Basil (when sexuality conflicts with spiritual beliefs), Calla Lily (when there is shame about one's sexual feelings or orientation), Easter Lily (the feeling that sexuality is impure), and Pretty Face (when appearance doesn't match cultural ideals). For a more in-depth exploration of this topic, see Martin Bulgerin's article on Essences and Sexuality.

Why should we go through the considerable effort of uncovering and healing shame? This toxic emotion is so painful that most of us will go to any lengths to avoid it. We hide the parts of ourselves that are not socially acceptable and contort ourselves into acceptability. At the cost of finding our own identity, we often bend to social pressure and conform unquestioningly as a way to appear "good enough".

When we feel shame, we often rush to hide from it by shoving it out of our awareness and then singling out people even less acceptable than ourselves. We're not as bad -- we rush to point out -- as THOSE trailer trash or THOSE foreigners or THOSE fat people.

Others are so flooded with shame by the teen years that they know they can never be good enough, so they cope by acting out "shamelessly", becoming mavericks and social outcasts. In short, shame damages our ability to love ourselves and to feel one with the community of beings. How much better to be free of the burden of shame by working to heal it!

ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Donna Cunningham, MSW, is one of the editors of Vibration and has many years of experience in both flower remedies and astrology. For links to more of her articles, visit her Frequent Contributor's Page.

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