By Gayle Powell Instructor's Note: One of the principles of Bach Flower Remedy work is that of peeling away emotional layers. Gayle's story illustrates this beautifully. She began in November, 2003 with total, disempowering guilt, which, in vibrational terms equals a sluggish energy flow. By March, she had moved through resentment to come to a place of anger. While it may on the surface seem that anger, which can be considered blaming others, is no "better" a place to be than guilt, it is a far more active emotion that generates a more energetic flow. It is, however, not a stopping point. Gayle is committed to move beyond it. With the help of her own commitment and Bach Flower Remedies, she will. For more about the Willow essence, see my article in the previous issue of Vibration.

For years I have wanted to try Bach Flower Remedies (I will use the term BFRs for short), but it left me frustrated trying to figure them out. A friend told me she signed up for an online class, and I also signed up immediately. A prerequisite for class was to fill out a questionnaire, and Connie picked a BFR for the student to take during class. She chose Willow and told me it was for letting go of resentment.

As I read the information on Willow, I was thinking: "This can't be for me. I don't have resentments, but I will trust this for my highest good and follow the instructions." All the time, I was thinking there must be some mistake.

As I started on this journey with Willow, the first day I took the drops straight from the bottle. I felt mentally disoriented and had stomach problems; this caused a knowing within me that this remedy was starting to work. The next day I added the drops to my water and had no problem at all.

Within 24 hours of starting Willow the lights came on, exposing the resentment hiding in the blinding darkness of my mind. I had huge resentments towards family members who had caused me years of grief and pain. The Willow had removed enough mental twigs from the dam in my mind to allow clear vision of these feelings. This created a healing crisis for me, because nice people do not hold resentments, and I felt very bad about myself. Yet, I knew this was a huge step in the right direction. These negative thought patterns were no longer working for me; in fact I could see where they had actually damaged me with life-threatening ailments. I needed to forgive myself and others.

At our next class meeting, the class suggested I include Pine to help with forgiving. I was able to feel the forgiveness and release start to happen. It was remarkable growth on all levels in a very short time. I continued taking this formula for the duration of class and watched as veil after veil was torn away from my consciousness, allowing me to see my errors in handling situations and in not being true to myself. I exchanged the role of the martyr for that of the strong leading lady.

I took the initiative of changing long-standing family dynamics. I decided not to attend my husband's family holiday gatherings. I felt free and light-hearted for the first Thanksgiving and Christmas in 25 years of being in this family.

Simultaneously, my relationship with my mom and sister were transforming. During class, an experimental idea came up of taking remedies yourself which those close to you would not take for themselves. I took Vine and Chicory for my mom and sister. Immediately, I could see how I'd allowed myself to be controlled by them. When I couldn't go to my mother's for Thanksgiving, I refused to take in her attitude that I should feel guilty and told her to stop verbally abusing me. She was speechless, because it was the first time in my life I had ever stood up to her. I knew it would not be the last.

I realized these negative traits had infiltrated my own mental tapes with years of being subjected to them. I immediately started weeding them out -- even as hard as it was to admit to myself they were there. I did not choose to bury my head. I did not listen to pride or ego and was determined these attitudes would be destroyed. I was standing in the light after being locked in the darkness of my own inner doing. I felt warmth and strength with each step towards valuing myself and the God within. I feel overwhelming gratitude.

I've also realized there's a new stage to my journey. After deciding to take the March, 2004 Bach Flower Remedies course, I filled out another questionnaire, and Connie recommended Holly for anger. That is right on target. Though I've told my mom I loved her, I also told her I knew we still had differences to work out, that I'm ready for our relationship to make a new healthier start, and to leave the past behind.

In the past I would have felt so bad and wouldn't have even said anything to her about our relationship, so this is huge for me! This is why working on anger makes sense to me: I know there are still things lurking there that need to be resolved... more layers to get to.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Gayle Powell has studied astrology and metaphysics for the last 23 years. She is a certified crystal healer of the Melody and Katrina Raphaell curriculum. She is currently starting her own business offering vibrational healing products to the world. Her proudest accomplishment to date is her beautiful daughter, Sadye.

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